lost~

yesterday went to utar in setapak
sad throught..they said the class for actuarial sc ald full
furthermore they ald started class for almost 4 - 5 weeks
why i m so unlucky
they suggested me to choose applied maths with computing
but this course i truely said that i have no interest
sad..almost cry out at the scene
why i m so unlucky
everything unlucky thing happened to me
where is my luck gone?
then i think about accounting
perhaps i got the chance to get in for accounting in utar
and i m quite interested in this field
but i really dunno
dun think i can do my decision so fast
i need to think so much before making an important decision
accounting or actuarial??????

parents are good for me
they treat me nice
i m so touched
but i relaly dun wanna burden you all
i dun want to let you all spend much money for me
i wont go for american degree trasfer programme
i know i still got bro and sis
if i ald use almost all my parents money
how would my bro and sis survive??
i know got loan and scholarship
but they just offer for in malaysia..
god,please teach me what to do..
i m in confused
i dun want to let them down
so..just give me a bright pathway for me to walk
i m lost now..~