busying

busying now
preparing for next week exam
preparing for march theory exam
exam exam exam..huh
but i like the busy feel
at least can use my precious time benificially

must keep away from fb ald
dun wan to waste my time to study
so my dear farm and cafe
i ll leave you all alone now
i have to study
i want to get a good result!~

why others can have fun in uni
but im not the one
yeah,i must let my uni life be more interesting
so do something for ur own uni life!^^

原来还想你

还想念你
只是单纯的想
想起快乐的时光
虽然很短暂
也许已不在你的记忆里
不知为什么
就是要想你
愿你幸福每一天

recently

i have been very busy recently
preparing for piano theory exam
and also the mid sem
yeah so fast mid sem ald..
today met lisa at library
long time din see her ald
miss her so much
we chatted a lot
haha^^
is a very happy day for me~

oh recently no money ald
keep on spend money on foods and books
those books and foods so expensive
luckily got a few new intake
can help me to earn money and gain experience
uh..really want to apply jpa ald!~
must study harder to get a very good result!!~

???

大舅的死因竟然另有别情？
我很向知道可是没去问
爸妈也不会告诉我们的
不过我心里倒有了一个猜测。。
大舅姆想抢财产？不懂
不想胡乱猜测
大舅去世后还有很多东西要整理~
外婆别哭了~。。〉
三舅竟然有大舅在医院的录影
外婆看了又哭了
说在这一个月照顾大舅的期间
大舅没给提示他就走了
外婆一定很想大舅吧 :(

永别了大舅

14/01/2010-15/01/2010
大舅在去年十二月中从吉兰丹回来了这里
外婆说他生病一直都没好
所以特地跟妈上去那里找他
大舅很感动不过就不肯跟他们回来~
他说他死在那里就算了
什么话吗？你不懂外婆很担心你吗？
还以为你是中邪了..

那天我们一家去了大舅的家探望他
他瘦得很，整身黄黄的
不知得了什么病
一直都发冷
大家都很担心他
爸带他去他朋友医生那
一看就说是型肝炎
还介绍了中医给他
不过过后大伙儿还是决定了送他进医院

大舅的情况时好时坏
外婆每天都在探望时间去照顾他
情况好时当然高兴得回来
情况不好时心情不好睡不着
哎很痛心外婆哦~
但是很希望大舅能早日康复
我们也有去探望大舅
看他的情况总比在家好了
也放心多了
不过几天后外婆说大舅全身酸痛
不能坐起来，情况不是很好
外婆每天都睡不好~

我们也有去问问医生大舅的情况
医生说大舅得了型肝炎
要一段时间来医治
一旦得了就一直会有这病
真是替他难过
大舅的情况一天比一天坏
三舅还去买了一种很贵的药
说专是医治肝病的
很有效
大舅服用后情况有转
不过过后还是上了四楼的病房
因为情况转得更坏了~
大舅开始没味口
呕吐 双脚跟肚子变的很肿大了
妈去探望他时 一度抓着妈的手哭得很凄惨
那是为什么？
大舅你很痛苦吗？

直到大舅的情况没得医了
大家都很伤心
外婆更加是了
大舅姆还不肯去见大舅
什么人吗？
不过最后不知什么原因还是去探望大舅了
我们现在不知道他的存心。。到底他在想什么？
我们真的不懂
我最后见大舅时是在周末
他不能很方便的行动
也在呕吐
隔了几天细菌走上脑去了
连人也不能认清不能开口讲话了
此刻外婆的心情又有谁能了解？
千辛万苦把孩子养大
看他能健健康康成长
成绩立业了
心里一定觉得很放心了
谁知现在却要做最坏的打算
眼看每天对着的孩子随时会比自己走的快。。
真是心痛外婆极了

大舅每天都吵着回家
他说他好了要回家
我们想他的心愿是要回家吧
在医生批准后外婆把大舅送回家
他在回家后几个小时就离我们而去了
那时我还在宿舍
星期四才去大舅的奠礼
外婆很舍不得大舅
一度哭得很可怜
还跟大舅说了几句话
我看了不尽掉下了眼泪
我很心疼外婆~
没想到我还有勇气去看大舅最后一面
外婆说念了经后大舅展开笑容了

这是伤心的一天
我们都哭成一团
他的女儿竟然没哭？！
他们在搞什么？
真没想到大舅这么快就走了
还不到一个月。。
生命怎么这样脆弱？
出殡后我们就去大舅火化的地点
外婆不能跟来
他说可以坐摩多回去
我们那里放心？
还是有人接他回去了
过后我们便乘巴士到了目的地
看着大舅的遗体被送去火化 我们又伤心的掉下眼泪了
永别了大舅
你永远存在我们的心里~
我们永远爱你

happy new year

happy new year to everyone !
what i want to do for this year ?~

1. study happily and get scholarship
i have to face the reality that i must finished my degree
although im not very interested with it
but i know i can do it
i must study happily and get scholarship
im not so satisfied with my exam result
and i dun want to spend more on my parents' money
they worked hard for it
they should enjoyed with their money
not me..hehe

2. know more friends
i think i have ald wasted my first sem to get know more friends
due to the hateness of this course and uni
im always alone in uni
i dun like this feeling
i think i have to be more active
friends think that im quiet..but i can be more than that
i want to know more friends
and make my uni life more interesting
i know i can do it!

3. earn more money
yeah..i want money
got money can buy things that i like!
really lucky
today received call that i have one more student
think before this..haha
more students = more money =more experiences
thanks mrs shaw for giving me the chances
i love you so much..haha
and hope to get new clotches with the $$

4. practice piano and passed grade 8 theory exam
oh yeah i ald registered for the theory exam
hope that i can handle it
my composing part not so strong + afraid dun hav adequet time to finish the paper
i want to pass
hope i can really work hard for it
and hope that i can practice hard on the diploma exam for practical
all i need is time

5. improve my sis's science and maths
i hope i can teach my sis about the sc and maths
she is not so strong in these subjects
i hope to improve her and see her smile again
she is dissappoited with her recently result
i love her so much..i hope to see her with her improved result ^^

6.travelling
yeah i like to travel
i think that one year must travel to one place in another country
this is what must do in a year
hope that can do it so~

7. improved my english
i still think that my english is in the form5 level
didnt improved at all
hope to get some time to inculcate english book interest
have to read english magazine
and also english business books
i want to be a success people one day
i want to earn a lot of money
so that my parents can live easily
and i can get what things that i dream to get

8. get a new piano
i think this is impossible for now
but i hope to get it!~haha

9. involve more in the curiculum activities
i hope i can join more activities in the uni
life in uni is boring if go to the campus early in the morning
and back to hostel in the evening
then do my revision and assignment at night
i want an adventures uni life!

10. outing with friends
it seems like hundred years i didnt go out with my friends
new friends or old friends
dissappoited coz didnt join
envy for those who can out with their friends frequently
long time didnt see ah yeng ald
hope to out with ah yeng and all my old friends

11. outing with my dear sis
haha..hope to go out with my dear again
its nice to go shopping and movie with you
i like the feeling with you
haha~like to see your smile

12. know more about this world
i want to know more about this world
its seem like i know nothing about this universe

13.get a wonderful christmas day and holiday
i want a wonderful christmas countdown and celebration
i want a wonderful holiday