我不会任命
我的命运是由我来掌控的
你派我这个
我不会任由你摆布
我要好好计划我的前途
我不做就不做
一做就会做到最好
祝我好运吧！~

at last i can post my dear "baibai"
to show out right here
haha my bag is white lappie is white phone also white..
everything in white
and my recent photos too with baju kurung
yeah my dear mum bought me the baju kurung
price is reasonable and it is nice!~

in my room

in library

分不清

“对你的感觉已经分不清
到底是欣赏
仰慕
喜欢
还是爱？
早已分不清。。”

...

mid-sem exam is coming..
huh..still dun hav study mood here..
hope can get what i want..
today the lecturer let us to choose when to have lecture
why most of the ppl choose monday?
huh..so unfortunate..hav to go uni on monday
how good it is if monday can stay home and sleep till late
meet with my dear sis..
have to accept it anyway..

Monday diary..

10/8/2009
my dear sis sick seriously
fetched her to policlinic
too many who fall sick until we dun hav the no in the morning
went there again in the afternoon
before that went to clinic hope too
was crowded as the policlinic
so horror..so many ppl sick nowadays

left out dear sis there since i got piano class at 4pm
worried about her
rained heavily
until my whole shoes wet..
whole body wet after reached piano centre
realy love to play piano so much
ms yap really a nice teacher
hope to learn and catch up what she teached
i want to be like her too~
got to go for exam next year
hope i can pass it
since it was the final exam for theory..
so nervous..many things to memorise and learn
hope i can really make it

went to diamond training and interview after that
the talk was really long
a bit boring at the end of the part coz i m thinking to go back
handphone no bateri ald
mum they all sure worry about me
must faster go home
hope that i can be the part time promoter
although i wished to be the other too
reached home at 9pm
phoned daddy
and ate my dinner
so hungry
watched nyonya at last..
what a tiring day

thanks my friends

thanks to everyone who care for me
i really appreaciate your concern..
xin, i realy miss you
got lots of things to tell you
to let you know
how i wish we got time to meet with each other
after all this
i just realised that i got a lot of friends who really care for me
anyway my future ll just depends on how it goes..
i m the one who can help myself
take care everybody..
do leave me a message or comment
to let me know you are following my blog
thanks (",)

lost..misss..puppet..

horrible day
i went to ukm myself by driving
the 1st time i drive there
ya..i know how to go there
bu when went back home..
i took the wrong road..

i dunno where m i
the highway is so long
i cant imagine..
where ll i reach
stupid me..passed by two tolls
ended up spent more money and time..
i m lost there,alone..
the feeling i still can feel it although i ald back
is a kind of horrible feeling
cant describe through words..

yeah..and today is xin's birthday..
miss her so much
my bbf..
she called me and we chat for a while
i got so many things to tell her..
and my friends too
being in secondary school was really nice
i missed it so much
sk or catholic
is better than now..
stupid ukm..who like it?

i m not quiet
i dun like ppl said like that
i hope other to see another me
i like to talk..i just dunno how to express it out
i like to keep everything inside
i dun like to talk with other about my problems
this is my weakness
i hope i could be a person like him..
change to another me
nobody notice about that

i missed the time in chs
its crazy..i can talk anything funny..
now..its seldom for me to be humour
i dun like the moody atmosphere now..
everyday is like that
staying alone and with computers..
i stay cool because i dun like it..
its hard for me to cope with the environment here
i din enjoy at all..the life now..
i dun like it..why force me to accept it?
i got my own dream..
so jealous those who can do what they want to..
i m just a puppet
who follow what parents want..
the life now is uncomfortable

*A sUrprise on SuNdAy *

went to pc fair today
i really hope to buy the vaio-sony laptop
its gorgeous!~i like it so much
i like the white one..
everything in white..haha^^~
but its too expensive,out of my budget ald>.<
hehe,next time i must earned more and more money
i want to buy everything i wish to
all in white color
dunno when i like white so much


we reached klcc convention centre in the afternoon
after we took our lunch at the vegetarian shop
before that..my father's car broke down when going to market!!~
eventually my parents went home by bus..
so funny of them..something funny happen(",)
omg,its crowded over pc fair
dunno what brand to buy..just hope to take the vaio back home
after getting some tips fr here and there
we bought the dell laptop
its white~! but not as gorgeous as my dream vaio
ot chance ll show my laptop
wanna giv it name.."baibai"
my father insisted to buy for me
i dun wish to..i wish to share with him
but he said he get lucky draw
so he just treat it as the present for me
....i hope to get things not in easy way
i hope to learn how to manage my money..

we waited there to take my new lappie after we paid
so excited..haha
and then a surprise for me!!
monday kang is just nearby us
sitting there and asking things!!~
as i knew he also got a new laptop which is white
but for sure i m not following him to choose white la
i like white..
we wanna to say hello to him
its hard..we are shy
i just bring out my bravage and take chance to talk with him
hoho~sorry i touched his arm and let him shocked
sorry la..
he surprise we are there
asking us some question
....................

at night we went to jusco equine park
i like sunday so much
i like to hang out without purpose
i dun like to stay in ukm..
i hate...

*missing you*

"miss him so much..
i know i m not yours..
hope that i can accept it
maybe once i found another him"

sad saturday

actually today planned ald wanna meet with xin they all
i waited for the confirmation of time excitedly
but wait until 8pm also nobody msg me
thought cancelled ald pula
started to practise piano
yeah..i like piano so much

in 9.00++ evon called me and asked whether i can go
.............
they ald reached there
leave me out here
so sad coz could attend
i cant get to go alone..
if comebody could tell me earlier
i can plan well..
car-pool or what...
missed a chance to meet with all of them
missed them so much..
disappointed about that
dunno how are they??